#not _at_ one

[secondbeatsongs]

my lungs are full of lake, and most of my meals today have been sandwich

this is what summer is all about

[hangeslefteye]

Can I play match-up? Looking for guy who doesn't judge me and loves me for who I am.

I'm female, taurus, feminist, highly functioning introvert (the kind people don't believe when you say you're an introvert). I hate any kind of purposefully done "physical exercise" but I loke taking long walks in nature and can dance for hours as long as I like the music. I'm frugal, a great cook, a great listener and secret-keeper. I can have a twisted sense of humour but don't like laughing _at_ people. I'm usually easy going but have a strong character. I don't let people walk over me but at the same time I hate confrontation with a passion so if things get unpleasant I just... move out of the way. If you hurt me I can forgive you, if you hurt my loved ones I won't.

No jealous guys please. If I'm with someone I'm with that someone but I'm not like apossession or anything, so he better don't try to gatekeep me bc I'm very independent and I'll just run away. I consider jealousy an insult to my loyalty. I'm not jealous either. Basic trust and respect.

Looking forward to my AoT bf! XD Thank you!

Those are great expectations, I'll give you Kenny!! Young Kenny would do even better <3

He's falsely judged to be toxic but I think he just had a hard life.Does he looks like a bad guy to you on the gifset above? I don't think so.

He's the type of guy that'll value individuality a lot so if nothing he'd encourage you even more to be your free self.He's a quite smart and open minded person so I don't think if he'd ever judge ANYBODY,including you.

Jealousy? I think he wouldn't even have a grain of that.He might be a little subtly protective -his life experience- but he's not the insecure suffocating type.

You seem like an energetic person despite being introverted.While you can tone him down a little-he needs that-, you'd still take his interest greatly.

Secret keeper and twisted humor? Look no more Kenny has it all too.He can be very loyal when it's important.

Kenny is the naggy type not the confrontation type so I don't think there's a chance of actually arguing with him,he doesn't take things much seriously.-unless if it's really important-

Overall you guys can be partners in crime.Like bonnie and clyde!!!You'd have so much fun with him.

[untitled-unimportant]

When I'm upset enough, my first thought is always, "All right. I just won't eat."

I don't know what I want this to accomplish. I'm not starving _at_ anyone. I know no one will notice. One summer, I lost my job, and food stamps took so long to come through that I starved unwillingly. No one in my life noticed how thin I was getting until I finally pointed it out. I could understand if they felt reluctant to comment; speaking of other people's bodies is touchy. But they never even saw.

I'm not a large person. Normally I'm about a buck twenty-five. Ten or fifteen pounds is a lot for me to lose. Nobody saw, because why would they? I'm the one who can take care of myself. I've always been the one who needed no help. I can safely be ignored.

I can't take care of myself, and it doesn't even matter if it's visible. I can still safely be ignored.

Eating feels so futile. Why waste the energy when my value is nothing beyond what tasks I can do for others? I can go quite a while without food. It doesn't affect my work. It takes so much to just do what other people expect that anything I can cut is useful.

[attrociteas]

@dzieditmeitas​

continuing from here !

While she isn't exactly a glutton for sweets, watching baking competitions greatly interest her. Especially if they take place in real life. Milda sat watching the competitors bake the ideal cake, whilst waiting for the countdown. "They are entertaining. Also, I'm curious to know what they're capable of...Being a cafe owner myself." Her calm, blue eyes watch the contestants racing against time.

Milda knows kitchen work is no joke. Although one can find peace if they were to visit her cafe, it takes many efforts to provide that kind of ambiance---to both workers and customers.

     "Aren't they? Leave it to humans to turn anything into a sport." As a good-for-nothing in the kitchen, and an avid appreciator of sports, he can appreciate the unlikely combination. And he supposes there is an element of national pride in it, too. After all, it is the Great British Bake-Off.  Only when Milda mentions her cafe does it occur to him that Milda might have more productive reasons for enjoying such an event.

    He could recall that she owned a café, yes, but was always quick to assume that anyone who owned anything didn't actually work _at_ it. There were other people who could do such tasks. "Ah, do you bake at your café? Next time I find myself in the region, I should visit. I’m not usually one for sweets, but I can appreciate a nice café." And indulge in some baked goods, every once in a while. 

[tomorrow-we-try-again]

One of the hotel employees asked me if it was ok to close the blinds as the sun began to creep into view after noon, and then asked what it was that I was doing (she said something to the effect of "everyone's been curious" lol) and what was going on with my setup. I explained and started taking about my keyboard, but she was more interested in the laptop stand it seemed. 😄

I tried to explain what the app I'm working on does, but I think outside of business people who teleconference regularly, I have a hard enough time explaining what it does _in English_... 😅

She ended up having things to do, but it was nice to have a chat; I'd kind of like to talk with the staff more, but I'm working, they're _at_ work, and I don't ever know what to say (this problem exists for me in all languages).

Anyway, that was nice, and hopefully I've made at least one friend among the staff now. 🙂